9-18

yeah so things are up in the air at my work. in the last 3 days 2 people have quit and one got fired. its going to be an interesting week. Shel got back from her trip fine and I guess she had a great time. its so nice when you get a break. I am still trying to get over life really. started back into therapy in hopes of being a little less crazy. I'm tired of feeling crappy in general. life would be better or could be better if I knew what I wanted and then went for it instead of everything coming before me. Im really great at putting myself on the back burner for stuff that just really isnt that important. Im way beter than I used to be but still in the bad at taking care of me catagory. I was refered to the other day as a door mat and I must agree. I let far to many things go because I just dont think its important. I guess I took my mom telling me to pick my battles way to fat and not there is no battle. so making friends and getting a life is a goal. getting what I want would be fun to, but I can only go so far with that befor its grotesquely over done. tired. work is stressful because no one really has a clue what the hells going on. my kidney is being all sore too. Im really hoping Im not headed back in to the sucky kidney stone land.