9-24

things have been good mostly. talked to Jer a bit the other night. shared some of my concerns and maybe planted the thought that he needs to think about the way things are. lol Im sure he wont but there is always wishful thinking. had my secont appointment with the free therapist at my Dr. office. whe is awesome way beter than the last lady that was there. I really like her she makes me feel like she is acually listening to what I was and is giving me feedback. unfortunatly because of the workload she has she is only available an hour a month split into 2 sessions. its the total and compleat suck. talking to her has been good. I feel releaved to talk to someone. yeah therapy makes me cry but its a good clensing crying. Im tired but I feel good. its making me feel a bit lighter and it defenetly fills my cup to talk about life and my issues. she strongy sugjested finding a real therapist who could acualy give me time. she thinks I need a good solid hour a week to get anyware positive. so I think I migh try to find someone who I can afford so I can feel beter than I have been. feeling sucky is lame and Im tired of it.