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yeah its been a wile. things are on more of an even keel but still sucky. we are no longer staying with Jers old bos. we are back in Maple Valley squatting in Jerrys spare bedroom. Im trying to figure out things to get us in our own place again. Im still working in Sammamish. I like the job and the people there at the Ace are great. the comute is killing me. driving an hour for a minimum wage job blows. at this point Im not gaining anything. Im paying for gas. its so mot whats needed right now. Ive been searching for a new job. we still dont have a second car so Jer has been driving me or Ive been taking the car. I hate driving Jers car. its an ok car just not for me. it feels big and bulky to drive and is uncomfortable fo me to drive for long periods of time. we are waiting on the car I want to be available. there are tons of used ones on the east coast but non here on the west coast. we have some dealers looking for one and are waiting on them getting one so I can buy it. Jer is still looking for work. it might come down to just waiting the next couple months till he can work at Microsoft again. he has had plenty of recruiters call him for jobs there. sucky rules saying he cant work there for andother 2 months. its freaking lame. yesterday was the due date on an open hiring rec. for him to get on there permenently. no one called but they are dealing with a bunch of reshifting of there contract people so they might have pushed there hire date out and just for got to call him. I would like for him to get on there permanent but the waiting is killing me. Im not so good with the patience these days. if we are going to be staying here it would be nice to be working closer to home. acualy having some money left over to save up would be keen right now. I know when we do get into our own place we are going to need things. having nothing but clothing and the computers blows. its dismal feeling. Ive mellowed out about life changing so much now I just go with the flow. when I find something important enough Ill charge in the direction I want, till then Im gathering the strength I know Im going to need.