11-14

got the tooth pulled after finding a low income dentist. it was fast or I thought it was Jer says I was in there forever. its healing up nicely and there is no more pain or difficulties with my jaw. I was supposed to go back for a follow up visit with the dentist yesterday but that didn't happen. I didn't have the 40 bucks for the copay and I sooo didn't have the gas to drive into Seattle. they have been slowly cutting my hours back at work to make room for all the new employees they are hiring. I just want to go back to my department. I'm so tired of the front end and cashiering. next week is ok because of blitz everyone has extra hours but the week after I'm working 4 hour days. its not even really worth the gas I have to use to get there. 4 hour days are nice but I cant really live on that. they assure me that things will get better the closer we come to Christmas but I just don't believe them. yeah like the first week they cut my hours I was told it wouldn't happen again it was a one time thing. as long as I'm being a cashier I'm going to be f@ucked for hours. I want to go back to garden center so bad. there is plenty of work to give me my full 32 hours a week. its rough that a measly 12 hours missing in a week is going to screw me so bad on my pay check. Ive been worrying a lot about money and I hate it. I was really hoping to have Christmas this year. with the way things are going I'm going to have to find another job just so we can eat. I can do food or gas but not both on a 20 hour a week paycheck. I want to believe them at work when they tell me it will get better. I so don't want to have to juggle another job. Im crossing my fingers and hoping for the best.