remembering

I am sitting here trying to remember things from my childhood. there isn't really much I remember at all and the tings I do remember are mostly bad things.

they are going to be changing my drugs tomorrow and I get assigned finally to a licenced therapist. not that I mind at all talking to my social worker but I need someone to focus me so I can feel like I'm making progress other than just blowing off steam once a week.

I want to be able to think back and remember other things besides the bad. I'm hoping that things and me will be able to be in a place in the next few months to be able to do that. it kinda makes me sad not to be able to just think of good things that happened to me as a kid. it cant be all bad