4/23

the week was good all in all. a funny thing did happen last night though. I was getting off work a little late cause they needed me to help with OT cause they were so short staffed. anyways I was going out to my car and I saw some kids checking car doors. they were just going down the line checking for open cars. I went back to the store and got the police that were there still from chasing off some kids that were selling stuff in front of walmart without permission from the store. so the cops went back with me and lo and behold the kids had hit my car and were inside cause I don't lock my doors. they hadn't hurt my car yet but were about to pop the ignition so they could steal my car. the cops took them away. and I got to go home with my car. It was funny the thing that went through my head was not oh fuck they are gonna take my car but shit I'm going to miss dinner. Its my favorite meal it would have sucked to miss it. Michelle is such a good cook and I love the communal meals we have every night. granted it would have totally sucked if my car had been stolen. not having a way to get around blows and we really need for me to have the van right now. I think of it as a bit of a life line. not that Jers car is bad but the van is mine and I love it. so after a bit of excitement I made it home fine van intact. well mostly she is dieing a slow death but for the moment she still works and thats all I care about. we are talking of replacing the van as soon as Jer has a job. it would be great to have a new car but Ill miss the van. I basically learned to drive in it and when it is time to get rid of it its going to make me cry. I'm totally and hopelessly attached to my van. I know I'm silly and sentimental. I don't suppose its a bad thing really. I wish I had gotten my license years before I did. people used to tell me it would give me a huge sense of freedom and it does. I'm actually really scared of being without a vehicle. Ive had to go to work a couple times without the van and those days totally sucked. having to wait and see if someone was going to forget to come get me from work. I pray a little every time I get into the van that it will last me till we get a new car. the van has almost 220,000 miles on it. it has a slow oil leak and has no AC. the AC thing doesn't bother me really cause I know how to roll down my window and it really doesn't get that hot here. mostly I'm just worried that one day I'm going to go out and the van just isn't going to start and its not going to be something we can afford to fix. hell I'm not even sure if its really worth fixing her if she did break. it would be nice to have a new car. I'm sure Ill get over that first car love thing. a wile back when we bought Jers car the lot we got his car from wanted to buy the van. I was like hell no fuck off my van buddy. it hadn't really dawned on me how attached to the van I was till then. since then I have a total new appreciation to the van. its mine and I'm sure Ill never feel the same about another vehicle again. does it make me silly for loving a car. maybe but for my van Ill do it she has been good to me so Ill do the same to her. speaking of the van I have to go check the oil.