4/14

having a sucky day today. I keep forgetting to get my meds from the pharmacy. I need to have them transfered to the pharmacy at my work so I can get to them easier. I'm on a mission. I'm fat. I don't have the clothes I need when they change over to a dress code at my work. I have some left over stuff from Texas but it doesn't fit. I need to loose quite a bit of weight. I'm going to lose the weight no mater what I just cant afford not to. so I'm going to stop eating all the shit thats bad for me and drop the 50 lbs that I need to loose. the exercise from physical therapy is good for me at the moment but its only going to be going on for another month. exercise seems to be my biggest problem so far I just don't have the motivation to do it on my own. trav says that it would be nice to join a gym after he has lost some weight from his weight loss surgery. right now with as tight as money is its not going to happen for us. maybe when Jer gets a job we will have the extra every month but I'm not holding my breath. I'm in the frame of mind that its going to be till he is well out of school for him to be working again. its sucky but the way things are going thats the way its going to be. I could be bitter about it but I just don't have the energy to spend on it. with or without him I still have to be doing what I'm doing work wise. hell right now thats all Ive got go to work and come home so I can do it again.