2/28

I misspoke myself before Ive been working for 5 weeks. not that that really matters to anyone else but for me it pays to keep accurate records. Ive been very proud of myself today. I have a seriously bad case of PMS brought on by birth control pills that didn't work for me. thank god I have pills now that I know work for me. anyways Ive had an amazing control over my mouth today. Ive been really good and kept all of my comments to myself. and believe me its been a challenge not to say some of the choice words Ive been thinking today. I hate saying things in anger or before thinking about what I'm going to say. saying hurtful things is pointless and I try really hard not to do it. I figure if I don't or try very hard not to say bad things to others they wont do it to me. now that theory hasn't worked out for me so far but I'm ever hopeful.

its been snowing here. I'm really hoping it stops soon so I don't have to deal with bad roads tomorrow on my commute to work. I'm also hoping that work tomorrow will take my mind off of being in a pissy mood. and even if it doesn't take my mind off it at least it will give me something to do. I'm really through with feeling like I'm going to take everyones head off for talking to me. I hate feeling like I'm going to snap at everyone. granted Ive not had my usual patients today so most of what people have said to me has really been pushing my buttons. truly all I can do is think of something positive and that positive is I haven't yelled or snapped at anyone today.