my thoughts on...

so it was brought to my attention that I could relieve a lot of my sexual frustration myself. it was a nice thought but there is one flaw to that plan. ok here where I share more information than a lot of you probably wanted to know....masturbation does nothing for me, it never has. you might think that I'm doing it wrong but I'm not. there is no joy in the self love. I have orgasms but there nothing more than my body doing its thing. orgasms from masturbation are mechanical for me. its like a check to make sure everything is still working. I can make myself cum but there is no joy in it, no feeling what so ever just the dip and sway of my cervix doing its little dance. no I haven't stopped trying and I wont. Ill keep on doing it cause yes it feels good but its nothing like an orgasm brought on by someone else. there is none of the blood rushing to my ears drownding out the world. none of the warmth spreading hotly to every inch of my body. none of the singing in my blood. its just not the same. I guess I'm just demanding like that. I want someone else to make me feel that way cause I cant. for me productive orgasms are a 2 person deal. 2 people making something fabulous. gods I love a good hard orgasm hell who doesn't. so I guess for all of you out there wondering why I don't just shut up and end my own misery. there ya go far more information on orgasms than you probably ever wanted.