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I went to CA hoping to get there be for Pa died but I failed. he died Saturday night wile I was on the bus. I have to say that 40 hours on a buss sucks. it was 20 hours one way so its been a long week and my whole body is tired. I felt pretty useless in Ca. I was just at a loss really. my mom is doing ok she has things planned so she has something to do to keep her occupied. I really want to be there but life is not in favor of that. I start work on Wednesday. I'm not really excited like I was. Pa dieing really cast a pale on things. I feel rather melancholy right now things just have no good to them. I'm sure Ill pull out of it soon.