12-18

second fiddle. story of my life. nothing new really but still hurts all the same. I should be used to it and I thought Id set myself up to just let it all slide off my back. guess I didn't do as good of a job just letting it go as I should have. I just have to reshuffle and sort myself out again. fuel being fed by a fat lot of PMS isn't helping. and even after it all I still love the ones getting what I want. I guess want just isn't good enough. so Ill direct a little more effort into the pot and hope it helps me get over it faster next time. right now I'm going to indulge in a little Frou Frou and let the burn settle in my heart and really get a good feel for it before locking it away. I know that one day I can stop locking it away and it will never show up again. I'm just going to let it hurt just for today.