6/24

I was planning on being in bed by now but Jer thwarted me. well I did it really I got the laundry out of the dryer and failed to change the stuff in the washer over to dry. the sucky thing is my body pillow was in the washer and now I have to wait for it to dry. I do have a great difficulty sleeping without it. so I'm up waiting on it to finish. the nice thing is it will be all warm and fresh when its done and finally bed time. the last couple days have been ok this morning was terribly boring and I actually found myself falling asleep at work a couple of times. luckily no management was present to catch me in my long blinks. I hate it when its so slow at work. next week brings the dreaded filling in for the cashier week. the job isn't so bad if I can move around and do stuff. sitting at the register for 8 hours is tedious to say the least. other than work things are getting back to normal. my body isn't quite so mad at me now. I don't even think that Ill have to get now drugs. Ive found a happy ground with taking a zanex at bed time to cut the panic at night. waking up with my heart racing and feeling like the world is closing in isn't quite what I'm looking for in the mornings. I do think Ill make an apt with my therapist next week just to check in cause its been awhile. and I need refills on my drugs so I suppose a visit would be a good idea. ok time to go check the dryer and hope for the best.