2-27

the week was week like. got to be on the customer service desk today at work. I liked it it was fun. blah blah blah. I have a case of the cranky bitchy going on. not looking forward to spending the next 2 days off. I was not smart and did all my cleaning and stuff to do today when I got home. the next 2 days look dismal. right now I don't care that I have books to read. 2 days alone just make me want to scream. wow I need friends. someone to be able to spend time with. to have some sort of interaction with. I'm in a serious pile of discontent right now. siting here wanting someone to interact with me just inst doing it for me. if I thought anybody would give a shit I would scream.

2-23

2 days off in a row was cool but no one but me was home to enjoy it. I did catch Shel at the tail end of yesterday and hung her new blinds for her. its tough to get the blinds strait when the house is crooked. today I'm just tired and tired of the crap at work. my stomach is having fits. I think the food was bad at lunch. sucky really. and did I mention tired 4:30 came way to early today.

1-21

so the Eclipse was great. a bunch of people at work took there lunches in the parking lot to watch it. it was so great. the good company and we had such a fabulous view the skies were crystal clear. later one of the people said they even saw the satellite go down. that was after my lunch though so I didn't get to see it. it was just really fun to hang out with cool people to see such a neat thing. one lady was singing Irish ballads. she is kinda a freak but it was still cool. anyways tonight was a great end to a really crappy week. and it being Friday for me was a plus too. I hope every one had as great a day as me.

1-20

Lunar Eclipse tonight!!! I'm hoping the skies stay clear so I can catch it on my breaks and lunch. I would have loved for it have happened on a day that I had off but it didn't happen that way. I'm looking forward to seeing it. they are supposed to be shooting down that satellite tonight too. that would be fun to see but I'm sure Ill miss that. I'm so hoping the skies stay clear. life has been crazy the last week. Ive barely seen Jer all week and Ive been alone a lot. I really dislike being alone. it just makes me feel all fubar inside. next week should be better its a short week and the hours are actually during the day instead of at night. today is Friday for me so that in its self is good. tomorrow is laundry and cleaning the house and everything else I can think to keep me busy.

2-18

I love you Sarah. I miss you.

2-17

the day was day like. work was crappier than normal literally. the first hour of me shift I spent cleaning toilets. people do the yuckiest things in bathrooms. cashiering was normal then it was foo to apparel. I folded more shirts tonight than I ever wanted to in my life.

2-11

the car is good life is better. Gods I love my car. it is so great after driving the van for so long. hell just knowing that I don't have to worry about the damn thing breaking is a blessing in its self. in the next couple weeks we are probably going to be replacing a tire. the tires on the front are almost new. the back right is bald in a couple spots so it will be leaving us shortly. then everything will be beautiful on the car and worry free for a long time. even if something does break I have the warranty to cover it.

I was sick a a bit back. well I made Jer sick it didn't last long for him thank god for zink. I'm glad he is better but I think its hitting me again. it would be the suck if I catch it again. not even catch It really. I still have it rumbling around in my chest a little bit. I just don't want it in my head again so Ill be hitting the zink and C again as soon as I can buy some at the store. probably tonight at work since walmart is the cheep for me. today is one of those days that I will only see Jer for a few minutes. I got to see him when I woke him up and Ill see him hopefully before he falls asleep. he should be going to bed just as I get home tonight. this week is super short. it was set to be 4 4hr shifts. sucky to say the least. I hate 4hr shifts they are just stupid and so not worth the drive to work. I called out Friday cause I had to go with Jer to work so we could get his car from the shop. it died on him on the way to work on Thursday. so I got to spend 2 days a Microsoft with him. it was lots of fun. he loves his Job. Saturday we had a tree come down and take out the power. so I called out cause the tree was across the road. the road was passable but I didn't want to go in anyways so it was a great excuse. Jer and I went to the mall instead. I was cranky and probably not much fun to be around. no I was just plain old being a bitch. I felt yucky I had cramps and all the perfume at the mall gave me a big old headache. Jer being the nice guy that he is rubbed my shoulders and let me be weepy after telling me I was a bitch. he is so great. there was no power still after we got home from the mall so we found other things to occupy us. 3 hours went buy in a flash. a long sweaty heavenly flash. I got to bed way to late and work sucked the next day but it was so worth it.

I feel good. talking with Jer the last few days has reminded me how well we get along and how good things are with him in my life. he listens to me and never fails to call me on it when I'm being bitchy. he is just as fast to do his best to make me feel better when something is bothering me. it just feels good to have someone in my life willing to do things for me just so I stay happy. yeah there are things I still want that aren't there but I'm seeing that some of the little things I would like more of just aren't that important. they are trivial in comparison to the over all good I feel right now. the big picture is making me happy and the last few days have reminded me how lucky I am to have made the decisions that have led me here.

2-4

bought my first car last night. its a very sexy carbon fiber grey Mazda 6 wagon. its got my favorite...mmm.. heated seats leather seats and lots of other cool stuff. its a bout a thousand times better than the daemon van. its going to take a while to get used to and to get just right. I'm still in the stage if adjusting seats and mirrors and pushing buttons just to see what they do. I did read the manual but I have a lot of extra options just not covered really well in the generic car manual. so Ill continue to push buttons for a while. Ive gone from a column shifter to one next to the seat so I'm turning on the windshield wipers a lot. it will take time to get used to it all. its way freaking cool though. I got bent over on the interest but thats what I get for having no credit... or bad credit because I have no credit cards. Jer cosigned for me. sweet of him. we will refinance next year to bring the interest down. by then credit should be looking way better for both of us. the smoothness of the new car is the oddest thing to get used to. its so quiet and pleasant to drive/ride in. the stearing breaks and gas are so touchy compared to the van. but gee there is a major difference in age of them too. hell the van is or well was 19 and the new car is just barely 4. the van had 227k plus thousand miles on it and the car has just over 40k. life with a new car is sweet and not having to worry about my car falling apart is a super big plus!!! its got a warranty!! woo hoo no more waiting for 6 months to have the money to fix things that needed to be fixed yesterday. new or newer stuff is cool. Ill try to get some picks up soon. have to get Jer to get me the camera and some day light. I'm going to be on a great high for a wile. life right now doesn't suck so much! lol and doesn't it just figure that I would get a new car just days after plugging hundreds of my hard earned dollars down on the van. life is funny in a sick kinda way.