8/18 again...

I have a good thing to add to all the stress updated Ive been posting.

a roommate here and I are getting ready to drive down to see my mom. Ive been wating to do it for a wile but the drive is to scary for me to tackle on my own. its going to be awesome to drive down to CA with Carole, my roommate, the beginning of september. Im totally jazzed to see my mom, morgan and anyone else I can from CA.

Woot CA here I come!!

8/18

well my L&I case was denied. I can appeal which could take forever going through everything again or I can just buck up and get back to work. I have to get back to work I cant afford not to be working. we are going to have to see what happens with what has been option # 2, opening a new case all together. since my case worker is on vacation till monday I have to wait on her opinions and go from there. aether way my FMLA runs out on the 30th so Ill be going back to work and fighting to do PT around work or Ill be out of a job and looking for work will doing PT. both suck there is no doubt about it. since Im sure that Lowe's is still unwilling to accommodate me for light duty. I am unsure what my options are once my FMLA time runs out.

Ive taken to making trees in my time trying to keep my mind calm. stress is not being very nice to me right now. the wile work is very time consuming. the finished product im coming up with are great. Sydny even made a couple yesterday. she enjoyed it and cant decide which of the 2 she made she really likes more and wants to keep. I think both are great. Im hoping today to get some pictures of the ones Ive made so far posted. making them is not easy and takes time but its rewarding and does calm my mind. I love the trees I started using speaker wire. there are so many strands of wire to work with the finished product is stunning. the only draw back to the speaker wire is the strands are so fine that if I want to bead the wire I have to use very small bead chips and there has to be a lot of chips. I had planned on using peridot chips on one but couldnt do it once I got the tree shaped. its so perfect with just the wire that I couldnt mess with it once I got it shaped. its pure and I felt like it would ruin it to change it once I finished shaping it.

tree making is all fine and good but its not helping with the bills and that needs to be my priority right now. I need to get back to working on whats essential instead of what feels good. its a shame I dont have the time and resources to make both one and the same.

8/10

the morning hasnt gone all that well. I got lots done the last couple days but I feel stalled out today. I talked with my state L&I claims guy this morning to find out he hasnt reviewed the case and the IME report indicates no worsening of my injury. I dont feel well about that at all. am I going to have to start a new L&I claim? am I going to be reimbursed lost wages for being out of work due to Lowes being unable to deal with my light duty notice from the dr? so many unanswered questions and no one seems to be able to give me answers till the L&I people give me a determination on my case. I can appeal a no from them but how much longer will that take. I need to get back to making money. not working sucks. waiting sucks. feeling defeated and unsure sucks. finding a new job without getting my shoulder back to working form is going to be tough. I ll do it if I have to but working wile in pain and very limited mobility isnt going to be something thats going to last long. I am so beat down right now its ridiculous...

had to renew my drivers license. I tryed to do it online but because I wear glasses I had to go in for the vision test. I got a new picture taken also. its an odd picture because I dont have my glasses on. it doesnt feel like me without my glasses.

8/8

things are marching along with my L&I case. I hase my IME and the dr was awesome. Im waiting on the IME report to get to the right people. Im crossing my fingers for everything going smoothly and soon.

a couple of our roommates moved out rather sudenly. helped them pack and then repact to make things work for their drive to Minnesota. Ill miss em but good luck to them I hope everything goes well for them. I acquired a saddle and a bunch of horse stuff they wernt hauling with them.

it looks like Ill be heading to CA the beginning of September. WOOT so excited to see my mom and people there. gonna try to work out a ride down into sac to see Treasach and anyone else I can. Ill be there for just under a week it looks like. my mom has a saddle for me...Ill probably trade the one I got from Rachel for the one my mom has. I dont need 2 saddles. Im looking forward to geting some of my moms hand made leather tack for some of the stuff I got from rachel. SOoo excited about the CA trip!!!