11-26

thanksgiving was awesome. Treasach and Mathew came up with 2 of the kids. we had a yummy dinner. the first night they were here was a kick though. they all got drunk.. or well were drinking. Jer got toasted. it was nice everyone hung out and socialized a lot. work has been rough. first they cut my hours way back and now they are giving me extra hours. I'm through with it just give me back my normal 8 hour shifts 4 days a week. working 5 days a week is just not for me and I'm very not fond of 4 hour days. things will even out after the holidays are over Ive been told. so I'm waiting and hoping for it to get better. I'm still up at the front registers being a cashier. the department manager of toys wants me to come be her stocker working a 5 am to 2 shift. that would suck and she is a bitch so I really don't think thats going to happen. I just have to be patient and wait for things to smooth out. its rough being patient some times.

11-14

got the tooth pulled after finding a low income dentist. it was fast or I thought it was Jer says I was in there forever. its healing up nicely and there is no more pain or difficulties with my jaw. I was supposed to go back for a follow up visit with the dentist yesterday but that didn't happen. I didn't have the 40 bucks for the copay and I sooo didn't have the gas to drive into Seattle. they have been slowly cutting my hours back at work to make room for all the new employees they are hiring. I just want to go back to my department. I'm so tired of the front end and cashiering. next week is ok because of blitz everyone has extra hours but the week after I'm working 4 hour days. its not even really worth the gas I have to use to get there. 4 hour days are nice but I cant really live on that. they assure me that things will get better the closer we come to Christmas but I just don't believe them. yeah like the first week they cut my hours I was told it wouldn't happen again it was a one time thing. as long as I'm being a cashier I'm going to be f@ucked for hours. I want to go back to garden center so bad. there is plenty of work to give me my full 32 hours a week. its rough that a measly 12 hours missing in a week is going to screw me so bad on my pay check. Ive been worrying a lot about money and I hate it. I was really hoping to have Christmas this year. with the way things are going I'm going to have to find another job just so we can eat. I can do food or gas but not both on a 20 hour a week paycheck. I want to believe them at work when they tell me it will get better. I so don't want to have to juggle another job. Im crossing my fingers and hoping for the best.

11-1

I am to old to be cutting teeth. when I was in my very early 20s I had my 2 right wisdom teeth forcibly pulled. now I'm having the big fat hurting because of the top left f@cker trying to come in. I officially hate my wisdom teeth. having me jaw locked because there is a tooth in the way sucks. I can open my mouth about a inch if I really work at it. it hurts and it sucks. I'm hoping to be able to open my mouth tomorrow. eating today has been a chore. now I know how my dad felt all these past years. (him not being able to open his mouth all the way due to a bullet locking his jaw closed) I have to work till Sunday. after that I'm hoping to find a place that will yank the bastard out of my mouth and work with my low income poor ass self. blah. the pain is making me very irritable. I'm tired of customers and not being in my department at work. I don't care if they are short cashiers my department is more short people than they are and busier to boot. my tire chose this morning to crap out on my. it was bad enough that a couple people stopped me to tell me it was bad. lol Ive felt like I was driving on a square tire all the last month. I guess it was better to not have it blow on the freeway. so Jer being the nice kid that he is took me to work and then got it all fixed. he is great. and he did it all on no sleep poor guy. I'm sure thats just what he wanted to do this morning is to have to change tires. I was sure I was going to be late to work today but he got me there on time. guess it was good I left for work over an hour early this morning. tomorrows shift is short and later in the evening so I get to go to the library and get more books. its perfect timing really cause I'm on my last one. I'm not really into reading it aether. its the third in a series and not having gotten the second book yet is making reading it kinda icky. its a total read it in order series. oh well tomorrow new books will be in and I can put this one down till the second one gets here.

why does everything have to happen at once...or well close together. I need to win the lotto. I got breaks that need to be fixed. the sucky tooth that needs to be pulled. shoes that are being held together with duct tape and to top it all off my electric blanket is going tits up. its cold and me with no heat. let the gayness commence. so lets see I get a cold, face hurting, death trap driving, foot hurting holiday season. oh and I'm cranky cause there isn't a dam thing I can do about any of it. tomorrow is another day and Ill let it all go but right now I want to kill something so I'm going to do the next best thing. I'm off to a drug induced oblivious sleep. wish me well.