Rita let down

we expected so much from Rita and she let us down. all that rain that we despterly needed and all she gave us was a bit of wind and dribbles.

we spent saturday morning tearing down what was left of the pool in preperations for her. it was a blast being out in all that wind. went down to the lake when we where done and played in the waves. it was glorious. the feel of the waves and the wind.

to bad we didnt get the rain but its good she lost her steam. Im sure the damage she could have done would have been very sad for alot of people.

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ultimate suckage!!!

ok so I hit my first object today in the car. it realy sucks I feel realy bad. gramps was with me and he wasnt visibly upset with me. he said he couldnt see eather. the sun was at its worst. I had stoped to get him from the car fix it place after he had droped off grannys van to be fixed. I was backing out of where I parked and hit a steal poll. there are picks on starroges site. its a prety nasty scrape. I dont think that any strucural damage was done. Im glad that I didnt crunck the whole trunk in. I feel like shit because of it though. makes me want to go back to driving the brown van. its a peice of crap with no ac but at least I wont be fucking up starroges car. there was a toyota van that granny wanted gramps to look at. maybe they will get it and I can drive one of the other vehicles. gramps is going to see if he can get some stuff to help hide the nasty uggly scratches that are now on starroges car.

I havent realy said a word to starroge since it happened. I feel so badly for the damage I did. I wish I had the money to fix it right. or to just get my own car so it wont happen to his again. Im a bit rattled and just dont feel like driving at all. but thats not an option to me realy I have obligations to the kids to get them from school. I had a dr apt today I didnt go to because I didnt want to drive. I know it probly seems silly the way I feel but its my first crunch in the car. so I guess Ill just let myself feel like crap untill I get a bit more confidence in my self.

love and light.

Im back!!!

yay for all starroges hard work getting me back up and running. Ive missed chatting and being online in general. it was a nice week dispite not having my computer.

yesterday was a kick. granny and I took brock to the eye dr. the dr was very concerned about broick and the amount of stress he is under constantly. its affecting his eyes big time. the eye dr strongly sugjested counceling for brock. we know he needs it but we are going to have to fight with mom and dad to get it. we told dad about brocks eyes and dad ignored the stuff about stress and sayed brock has eye problems because he plays on the computer. the man continualy reminds me what stupidity is.

the eye apt withch was the second one by the way.the first was last week and the lady was so confused by her findings that she refered us to her boss. her boss did give brock a prescription and told us to get costody of him to save his life. the guy was great he didnt charge us for the second apt and wants to see brock in a month to see how things are going.

after the eye apt we got some shoping done. after the shoping witch was done in record time due to impending rain we got to the car to find a totaly flat tire. luckily we were at walmart wich has a tire center. so I took the tire off with the help of a good semeritan and tossed it in a shoping cart and took it over to the tire place. did all this in the rain of corse. spent some time in the tire place and got a new tire cause the old one cracked on the sidewall and couldnt be fixed. headed back to the car with the new tire and put it on and headed home. it was a blast. I know Im a freak who thinks changing tires in the rain is fun.

granny was all about getting gramps or starroge to come fix the tire. that just seemed silly to me to waste the gass when I could do it just as well as them. when we got home brocks dad was upset that brock hadnt changed the tire. I was like WTF an 11 year old shouldnt have to change a tire under and surcomstances. yet again another example of dads stupidity.

it was a good day we all had fun.

love and light

Computer goes boom...

Just FYI, Graeye's computer went boom 2 days ago. She'll still post here as time permits, but will be a bit slow to answer emails and such for the next few days. Hopefully it'll be fixed before this weekend.

some people...

some people make me so fucking mad. the neighbors are on the bitchy war path again. not with me this time but with there kids. how some one can look at there kids and say I dont want you here is beyond me. it sucks big time listening to the youngest boy cry because he has been turned away from home. he wants to sleep in the house with his parents and they tell him no. they gat pissed at him for never being home. makes me wonder why they get pissed at him never being there when they are constantly telling him they dont want him there. he isnt aloud to sleep there but they expect him to be there every day to clean there house. it just makes me want to kill them. children are to be loved and cherished and all they do is think there kids are there to do all the work they dont want to do. wich is everthing by the way. the kids have to clean that house every day.

the oldest boy has now been given the chore of cooking all the meals. he is 13 for goddess sake, way to young for that kind of responsibility. they tell him to cook because they are to lazy to make meals. if he wants to eat he must cook. they have been eating hamburger helper for a week and a half because its something he knows how to fix. those people are killing their kids love for them by expecting everything and giving nothing.

the only thing I know to do is to start cleaning some over there everyday to help the kids out and to teach the 13 year old how to make decent meals. granny and I have decided to help the kids. the older boy is constantly exaused because of the load he has on him from home. all I can do is love those boys to death. I know thats not much annd wont counteract the damage their parents havce done. but at this point its all I know to do.

those boys are so sweet and loving and they get shit for parents. its a sad sad world we live in thats for sure!

the sad [art is I dont even think they know they are doing so much damage. one boy they turn away and the other they yell him he is going to be a pro ball player. they tell him that school is unimportant and all he has to do to live is be good at paseball. thats a load of crap. they have filled his head with an expectation of him so great that he does everything not to let them down. he is there golden boy expected to be a pro ball player and to take care of his parents till he dies. I dont even know if he likes playing ball. its a sad thing to place such a big load on a child. it eats at him every day. he is tired constantly, doesnt eat right and trys to do to much for people who shit on him.

the kids go to school come home clean for mom and dad make meals and are told that all this comes befor homework. the kids are lucky to have an hour or 2 of time for themselves befor they fall exaused to sleep. its sad all I can hope is that by me picking up some of their chores it will let a bit off them so they can acualy be kids.

wish me luck in ly endevors and pray for the kids.

love and light

my box....

ok so I couldnt help it...this is my most wonderfull jewelry box!! thanks Starroge!!!!!!!

my birthday...

the day was overall a good one. I got up and passed out in the middle of the house and wacked the shit out of my face. I got to joke all day that I picked a fight with some of Grannys fake flowers and they won lol. slept alot due to my face realy hurting. got up and did some paper mache to help Brock with his science project...we are making a 3d model of the sun. granny had gifts out ofor me wich was very nice. I got a couple new gargoiles and some absolutly beautifull lotus candle holders that I will be able to use wile doing Reiki healings. a couple cute knit tops in lavender and orange and a great jewelry box from Starroge. its realy cool it has lot of drarws and has a foe marble finish. it had a little balarina that turns to fure ellise wich I love its one of my favorite music peaces. when you open the front doors to make the balerina dance a little chandalere above her head turns on and lights her up with a little red light making her shine. its great its the jewelry box every little girl wants to make her life compleat. I love the little red light if it had a tassle it would look like a bordello in there. its great and I love it. Im happy now I have a place to put all my Jewelry. and little trinkets. Gramps got me a drummel set that has everything to help me in my projects and a tool kit of my own. lol I guess he got tired of loosing his tools to me.

the day was great dispite crashing on my face. we went to a little atalian place for dinner and I had the best seafood medly in a white wine sauce. it was a great close to the day. Im hoping that every day can be as great this year.

the only thing that would have toped one of the greatest birthdays ever would have been if I could have spent it with the people I love and miss. I thought of you all today fondly and often.

love and light

Happy Birthday to You!!!

Dearest Graeye,

Happy Birthday to you!!!

I wish I could be there with you,

Have an amazing day

Love and hugs
Kylara!!!

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Katrina

so Ive been watching the news about huricane Katrina the past couple days. its tragic and I feel for all the people involved or affected. its sad that it could have been prevented. its sad that so many people stayed through a manditory evacuation that was called befor katrina hit.

I see all these people on the news bitching cause they are now in deplorable conditions. they have no water or food and are living in unsanitary conditions. so many people that were stupeid enough to stay and ride put the storm thinking it wasnt as bad as everyone perdicted. well it was worse than everyone perdicted and the people that could have left are bitching cause they are not being taken care of. it makes me a bit sick to my stomach realy.

one of the storys that I saw was about a group of tourist that had charterd $24,000 worth of busses to get them out and to a place they could get home. 500 people waited for busses that never came. the military had comendeared there busses and sent them elsewhere. the same military that was blocking the bridges out of town. armed gards not letting people leave. why they wernt letting people out is beyond me. one would think that in an aria of destruction that was no longer safe for people totaly makes no sence.

another story that made me just want to cry was a bunch of new mothers looking for their babies. the hospitals hade evaced the babies first and all these mothers with pictures trying to find out where their babies were taken. women with only pictures wondering where there new babies were. Im glad the babies are safe but damn I would be pissed if I had a new baby and didnt know where it was. they were bussing the women to shelters not to where there babies were. the were told that they could get info on where the babies were taken after they arived at the shelters. thats shit take me to my fucking baby.

the people who are lucky enough to get on busses out are being dropped off in other towns away from their loved ones and left to manage on their own. there are some shelters but most even now days after the arival of katrina are still not equiped to deam with the thousands of people that had there lives destroyed.

there is talk that its not worth rebuilding the damaged arias due to the mass destruction. what is going to happen to all those people that are being displaced? so many towns were destroyed so many lives lost. there is no place for the dead. theya re being stacked on the streats in the hopes that they will be taken care of later. people who went to shelters are dieing there and being left outside the building for later disposal. FIMA stoped looking for survivors today. Why? there are still poeple traped on there roofs waiting for help that wont come. they will starve there with no food and no water. no beter off than the people starving and dieing in the shelters.

their is wide spread looting. ok I can understand people looting for feed and water but people looting clothes and electronics.... DUH there is no electricity. whats the use of a free tv. people who do have cached of food are protecting it with there lives. they are shooting people in the streets to keep what they have.

the senceless sniper fire on the hospitals is what gets me the most I supose. they are trying to evac people who are hospitalized but cant because when they try people shoot at them. whets the fucking point in that. ...Oh well if I cant get out no one can.... what a juvinile asinine way to think. it pisses me off that there isnt more help for those people. I know it takes time to asemble the suplies and staff to help in big desasters like this. all the people in shelters seem to think they are forgoten. left to cope with no food or water, no showers of bathroom facilities. hell its not like where thay are was ever ment to house so many for so long.

I guess Im just fed up with all the complaining from people that could have helped themselves and didnt. I understand the ones that stayed because they had sick loved ones that couldnt travel. I have no sympathy for those that were just stupid and sat back and think the rest of us should take care of them. its a tragic situation but Im realizing that even with the horors going on down south my patience for stupid people is still just as short.

I supose I should be done with my rant. I do feel bad for the people but there was so much that could have been done if most of them tryed they would be fine but instead they sit and wait on someone else to do the job for them.

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