3-13

not much is going on but I figured even not much is a post. got the letter from FEMA that we were denied a government loan. we qualify for grants and got one. its not much but should be a security deposit when its time to get into a new place. I'm going to dispute there opinion on me not needing a car replacement grant. in FEMA's opinion a household only needs one car. they say that a wife stays home and takes care of the kids and the husband goes to work. Tards. its nice of them to suport women having a career. so Im going about getting what I need to jusp through more hoops. I love the government. Im hoping that they wont set fire to the hoops befor I get my stuff together.

Jer finaly got a call from a recruiter from Microsft. he is waiting to hear back for his interview date. we are still on hold. waiting is the suck.

3-4

yeah its been a wile. things are on more of an even keel but still sucky. we are no longer staying with Jers old bos. we are back in Maple Valley squatting in Jerrys spare bedroom. Im trying to figure out things to get us in our own place again. Im still working in Sammamish. I like the job and the people there at the Ace are great. the comute is killing me. driving an hour for a minimum wage job blows. at this point Im not gaining anything. Im paying for gas. its so mot whats needed right now. Ive been searching for a new job. we still dont have a second car so Jer has been driving me or Ive been taking the car. I hate driving Jers car. its an ok car just not for me. it feels big and bulky to drive and is uncomfortable fo me to drive for long periods of time. we are waiting on the car I want to be available. there are tons of used ones on the east coast but non here on the west coast. we have some dealers looking for one and are waiting on them getting one so I can buy it. Jer is still looking for work. it might come down to just waiting the next couple months till he can work at Microsoft again. he has had plenty of recruiters call him for jobs there. sucky rules saying he cant work there for andother 2 months. its freaking lame. yesterday was the due date on an open hiring rec. for him to get on there permenently. no one called but they are dealing with a bunch of reshifting of there contract people so they might have pushed there hire date out and just for got to call him. I would like for him to get on there permanent but the waiting is killing me. Im not so good with the patience these days. if we are going to be staying here it would be nice to be working closer to home. acualy having some money left over to save up would be keen right now. I know when we do get into our own place we are going to need things. having nothing but clothing and the computers blows. its dismal feeling. Ive mellowed out about life changing so much now I just go with the flow. when I find something important enough Ill charge in the direction I want, till then Im gathering the strength I know Im going to need.