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Modern, Cool Nerd 60 % Nerd, 52% Geek, 26% Dork

For The Record: A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia. A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one. A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions. You scored better than half in Nerd and Geek, earning you the title of: Modern, Cool Nerd. Nerds didn't use to be cool, but in the 90's that all changed. It used to be that, if you were a computer expert, you had to wear plaid or a pocket protector or suspenders or something that announced to the world that you couldn't quite fit in. Not anymore. Now, the intelligent and geeky have eked out for themselves a modicum of respect at the very least, and "geek is chic." The Modern, Cool Nerd is intelligent, knowledgable and always the person to call in a crisis (needing computer advice/an arcane bit of trivia knowledge). They are the one you want as your lifeline in Who Wants to Be a Millionaire (or the one up there, winning the million bucks)! Congratulations!

fun

though Im not sure the one for me is corect its fun none the less!

the talk....

so granny decided we all needed to talk about the issues we were having with our neighbors. issues discused here in earlier posts. the discussion was filled with tales of other people being unhappy with Starroge and my behaviers thus far. the cinversation was amusing on my part....wow can Starroge make a piont and hold his own.

granny informed us that some were of the opinion that we were rude in some social situations. well yes I supose we are. being invited to Family meals where we are not included in the confersation. we eather lack knoledge or imput on the subject or are just plain talked over. me Im used to being ignored and talked over so I have made it a habbit to not speek untill spoken to. our habbits of getting up from our meal and having a smoke...well we are rude for doing that. oh well tough shit. its always fun to sit and watch other people talk and be bored.

we were informed that the neighbor thinks we are abusing our living situation and taking advantage of people. yes I dont have a job at the moment. yes I am working on that. no they dont see anything positive that is done only the negative of everything.

we have a male dog.... why this is an issue is beyond me. did you know that id a dog pees on a tire it ruins the tire? that one was beyond me but from what the neighbors say its fact. they dont acualy pay atention. my dog has never peed on a tire in his life but because he lifts his leg he is evil in there eyes. he is not a bad dog but is considered so because he is male. where they have room to talk about any animal is beyond me. my dog has manners sometimes he forgets but at least he has them. there dogs pee and shit wherever they like be it in the house or on the deck. there dog lucky is a sweet girl but is religated to her tiny fence alone. when she is out they call her bad for not listening. well DUH she is wanting atention cause they do shit with her. there lack of love for there animals saddens me to no end.

all this wouldnt have been so bad if they had just come to us with the issues instead of filling grannys head with the notion that it was her job to fix it. she wants Starroge to be fake to apease the problem. fake is something he is NOT and will never be. he is honest... brutaly sometimes but honest none the less. if he has an issue you will know it. after all the time spent talking to granny she still couldnt come to see that starroge is not going to be falce and fake just to apease her life and comfort.

we were asked why we couldnt help around the house more. ok a couple of points here she just doesnt get. starroge doesnt thing on a level of domesticity. rutine household things escape him due to the fact of no one ever askes him to help. on the few ocassions they have he does for them. we offered to set up a schedule to help with chores and her first words were no. she doesnt want it to be forced lol. our point was its not a habbit so expecting it ocasionaly wasnt going to happen cause paterns of helping wernt established.

the most troubling thing is that no one understands Starroge or the way he thinks. they all think he is just inconsiderate, unfeeling and calouse. ok so all those things are seen alot hehe. what they dont see is why they are there. he is a logical person. he doesnt think with feelings in mind just logic. everyone is looking at him like he is a feeling being. they miss the beauty of him being different from them. he is a wonderfull person and makes alot of sence if you know how he thinks. they all refuse to even atempt to look at the world the way he does so all they see is some one they want to change to make like them. it makes me sad realy. why cant they learn that he is who he is and just leave it at that. no they want him to be a sensitive and lie to everyone so they are happy. Im sorry but it would be hell living with him if he was. he is honest and that brings a simplicity to him and life around him. its to bad that others cant see the positives to him. its to bad that people around us are blind to anything but there own feelings and wants.

Ill probly have more on this later...the saga continues.

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iritation...

some people just suck! Im about sick today of hearing why people are pissed at me second hand. the neighbors have their panties in a wad over coments about their pool. stupid things like 'the pools dead how sad' and having it pointed out to them that now that the pool has no water in it there is no structural integrity left and its caving in. all truths with no harm intended. people who take flat out statements of fact and take them as a personal asault suck. makes me so mad at the moment.

having more than some problems with the neighbors lately. being told its not a good idea to ask for a note so I can take their son to the dr cause they are pissed about a few words. wouldnt it make sence that their son is more important and they should just do what they need to do to get him healthy. and listening to them tell him they dont want him at their house cause he is sick. that just burns me. he wants the comforts of his family cause he isnt feeling well and they say go away we dont want you here cause you are sick. my neighbors make me sick right now. they dont even know what he is sick with just that someone else took him to the dr cause he wasnt feeling well. hell I guess he is beter off here he could have gone along time with them saying not now we are busy.

to top it all off they have decided my dog is evil because he 'shit' on the path. it was cleaned up but that doesnt mater. hell their dogs shit where ever they are in the house, on the deck. they decreed... well not them they had someone else tell us that our dog was not alowed in there yard anymore. makes me sad realy. Raiden loves Lucky and they think why she is so bad is because of other influences ie. my dog. Lucky is their dog that they keep locked in a little pen and dont ever play with. hell for the longest time we were the only ones to play with her. she is a great dog that is hyper when she sees people cause she is locked up and ignored all the time.

Fuck Im so agitated at them. it saddens me that they are the way they are. their animals deserve beter. hell their kids deserve beter. no wonder granny has been chasing them for years. she goes where the kids are so she knows someone is taking care of them.

ok I think Im done... needed that rant prety bad. I think I might be able to let it all go now.

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so many projects...

I think I may have too much on my plate at the moment! it's fun though. I dont seem to have enough hours in the day to get all my projects done. a lot of them are plans for Xmas and I know that's a few months off but it's closer than I would like it to be with as much stuff as I want to get done.

right now Im Quilting. its a project that has been in the works for a while. I finaly got all the things I need for it today. last xmas I made quilts for the kids and they absolutly love them. their mom loved them too and commissioned one for her bed. Im hoping to get it done by the end of the month. its in blues, purples and greens. its going to kick ass. Ill try to remember to post pics hehe.

my other major project is involving lots and lots of clam shells. its been realy fun going down to the lake to gather shells and the pup absolutly loves to run in the water.. the lake is being droped 8 ft so they can do repairs on the dam. its realy droped the water a lot and they arent even close to finished letting water out. the good thing about the water being low is that I have been having a blast going down and colecting shells that are everywhere. I was just picking up the perfect ones but now I need all I can find broken ones especialy. dont care if theyre broken cause Im going to be taking a hamer to them so I can use them. I have a lot of shells already but not nearly enough for the stuff I have to do. when granny found out about my plans she wanted me to do lots so the things I was going to do originaly, doubled. Ill try to remember pics lol which is going to be fun cause Im using alot of them for gifts.

I wouldnt normaly have issues with these 2 projects but other things keep interupting them. like gramps perking up and saying I have a job for you! his jobs are usualy fun though. the latest one was organising all the food in the house. I went and for another storage cabinet and asssembled it. Phew that was fun took me a couple hours. I love 11 pages of instructions that were translated by someone not english speaking. but realy it was fun I love building things. then it was off to emptying the 2 storage cabinets we already had to get rid of old food and take stock of what we already had. oh my goodness we have a lot of brown gravy mix. lol it seems its grannys favorite thing to buy. so any ways I got that done today.

my other thing Im working around is my messed up sleep. my docs have been trying to help me with it but the last thing we tryed I was alergic to so now I have to wait till the 31st to see what other ideas they come up with. the problem we are trying to conquer is I sleep very lightly and get woken by just about every sound or movement at night. its wreaking hell on my energy and moods during the day. not being able to get sleep sucks. feeling more tired when you wake than when you went to bed sucks. trying drug after drug to no avail sucks. we did find one great fix. Ambien works great for me. the only problem is the side efects. when I take Ambien I forget everything. it gives me short term amnesia. not so good for functioning on a day to day basis. it really blows to do driving and go where the fuck am I and why am I driving? so well no more Ambien for me and of course I gave up the sleep that went with it. all I can hope is that when I go in on the 31st that they might have thought of something that might work to help me sleep deeper.

my sleep problem is odd. I dont get good sleep cause I never get deep enough to realy rest like I should. most people if they dream they are getting adiquate sleep. with me that doesnt apply. because of teaching myself to lucid dream when I was younger I seem to have fucked something up. I dream when Im awake I control a lot of what I dream so as to not have nightmares. granted I still have odd dreams as you all know lol. I guess my body has gotten so used to me being awake that its fucking up when I should be getting rest. waking almost completly up while dreaming is causing me fits. I love my lucid dreaming but if I had known that this was going to be an affect of it I wouldnt have gotten so into it as a teen. minor sleep deprivation blows big green festering donky dicks!!! but hey I guess it could be worse I could be getting no sleep at all.

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religion quiz...

1. Neo-Pagan (100%)
2. Mahayana Buddhism (99%)
3. Unitarian Universalism (98%)
4. New Age (91%)
5. Hinduism (88%)
6. New Thought (80%)
7. Liberal Quakers (76%)
8. Theravada Buddhism (76%)
9. Jainism (71%)
10. Scientology (70%)
11. Sikhism (65%)
12. Reform Judaism (64%)
13. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (60%)
14. Taoism (56%)
15. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (55%)
16. Secular Humanism (49%)
17. Bahá'í Faith (42%)
18. Orthodox Judaism (42%)
19. Orthodox Quaker (35%)
20. Islam (32%)
21. Nontheist (30%)
22. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (19%)
23. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (16%)
24. Jehovah's Witness (16%)
25. Seventh Day Adventist (14%)
26. Eastern Orthodox (6%)
27. Roman Catholic (6%)

rude people....

another dream for ya...

we came home Starroge and I and there were these people in our house. one of them looked like Napoleon Dynamite. there was a lady and a couple more guys. they were just there in my house I dont know how thew got there they had just come in. the Nepolian guy was sitting at my comp doing something. Starroge was Just ignoring them like nothing was odd about them being there. I was tired so I sat down to watch Starroge play his game. I put my foot up on the desk to kick back like I do alot. I asked the Napoleon guy who he was and why he was there. he sayed he was there all the time, he was a friend of me ex father in law Bob. he had just droped by to see him. (Bob lived next door). I was ok with the answer and went on watching Starroge play his game. the Napoleon guy lickes my foot. at this point I was more creeped out by them being there.

I went to the kitchen. there was all this food made that they were eating. there was a thing on the stove that looked like donut fries. little sticks of donuts that looked like fries all covered in maple topping. I noticed something moving in them. I watched for a while and finaly saw my snake in them rolling around eating. I got pissed cause they had let my snake out and it was somersaulting through maple donuts! so I put my snake away and the phone rings. Just as I pick up the phone I hear the Napoleon guy talking to someone. the person on the phone asks for someones phone #. I yell and take the phone away from the Napoleon guy and take a message so my friend can call whoever it is back. wile Im taking the message all of the odd people in my house are talking and being realy loud trying to talk over me to the guy on the phone. I have to escape and close myself in the bathroom with the phones to get the freekin message.

I come out of the bathroom and see that they have opened a box that was delivered for someone else that morning. I ask them what they are doing and they say that it was there and boxes are suposed to be opened. at this point I have had it!!! I ask them to leave. I tell them to get out that they are no longer to come into my house anymore. they are totaly unwelcome there. not only have they been coming in eating my food but they are rude. they answered my phone fucked with my snake and licked my foot. when I come back in from yelling at them and kicking them out of my house I hug one of my room mates and start to cry because I was just very mean to people who probly didnt deserve it. there was a line they crossed though and I couldnt let anyone trample in my space or peace.

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my roses

...so I saw these at the store the other day and had to have them. I love them they rock and make me happy. I figure no one else is going to buy me roses so I did it for myself.

lonely

well I know where the crankyness came from lol. started my period today its sucky but at least its only once a month. I was really feeling super bitchy last night. it doesnt happen a lot but when it does it bothers me.

Im a bit lonely today...ok a lot lonely. there is no one on to chat with. starroge is sleeping. there are kids in the room but they are absorbed in there PS2 game.

I got to sit on my euro futon today for a few minutes. its been full since we put it up. the kids love it. I got up to starroge sitting on it this morning playing the PS2. its made the room far more inhabitable to the kids. I supose that means that Ill never get rid of them now lol. its not so bad they are fun to have around. when they get to be too much I can kick them out. Im just a big softy and dont usually do that.

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tired and cranky

today was tiring. dunno why though the biggest thing was a let down really. went to the Army recruiters office and talked to them. they dont take crazy people. oh well no boot camp for me. so now I search the area for EMT and Paramedic schools. Im feeling the need to stop puting off actualy doing something poinent with my life. I cant sit here and be a bum for the rest of my days fun as it might be.

we got the new futon for the comp room its realy cool. its a Euro futon. it folds to be a love seat and the arms fold down to make a bed when needed. the kids love it and as soon as it was put together they started on there game on the PS2.

I should have eaten earlier then I wouldnt feel so crappy. oh well.

lets have a trip down memory lane....

1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll (try to) say something that only makes sense to you and me.**
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you. **
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.

this is it...

well its my last day here. today was relaxation and trying to stay out of the heat. we get up early tomorow to get to the airport so I can get home. not really looking forward to the long day of airports, layovers and traveling but its worth it to be home. I miss my dog and Starroge alot. cant wait to get home and sleep in my own bed. Ill miss my family but thats ok cause I know I will see them again.

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